My heart is so full tonight. My heart is heavy and low. Tonight I saw Tara’s Dad, and he was just so casual and nonchalant. He has not seen her in six months and he blames me, yet he makes no effort to see her and he has never ever even given her a dollar or a toy. He has never given her ANYTHING!
I want Tara to have a Dad so oooooo badly. She is so beautiful and sweet, she deserves a father. Why won’t her dad be a father? He is so irresponsible and nonchalant, yet he says that he cares. Actions speak louder than words and he does nothing for her and only calls once in a while.
I am so sad, my daughter deserves better than this. How will i raise her without a father? I am so ashamed that the man I made her with treats her like this. It’s my fault, I knew he was no good, yet I still went and had a child with him. Now, she has no father. Oh God!!!!!!!! My heart is breaking into a million pieces. my heart hurts. What will I do? How will i raise her well? Will she turn out ok?
I am sooooo sad, I am soo ashamed. I am so embarassed. I want my lil girl to have a dad. I want that sooooo bad.
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February 9, 2008 at 8:56 am
First of all you have an amazing daughter, she’s beautiful. I’m so glad you have created this blog to share your feelings with us. I’m a single mom of a wonderful six year old. I can tell you now it may seem hard but would your prefer to be with a man like that and be miserable or raise you child in a healthy nurturing environment?
As you said actions speaks louder than words. It’s sad how a “man” can make a child and just walk away but stay strong and know your daughter will grow up and see her father for what he is.
February 12, 2008 at 5:33 pm
I haven’t even read much of your blog before I decided to post a comment (read your comment on singlemomseeking).
First of all, your daughter does have a father, her ‘father’ is the strong mother who is raising her. Regardless of how often he sees her, or how long he is absent, YOU are the constant in her life. YOU are her rock. YOU are her companion, and her soul mate. YOU are the one she wants, YOU are the one she loves, YOU are really all that she needs.
This is a hard lesson I have learned. October 18, 2005 was the last time my son saw his ‘dad’. My son is 3 years old. He has only spent less than 14 hours in a total of 7 visits with him in his life. It used to bother, but no longer.
I have raised a happy healthy toddler, who has amazing manners. Who is loveable. Who is kind. Who eyes twinkle, and toothy smile erupt when he sees me and other people he knows and cares about. My son is adjusting perfectly to our life.
You daughter will grow to be a strong, independent woman, who can rely on herself, support herself, emotionally, finacially, however she needs, if you show her how.
Don’t miss the creature, that doesn’t deserve to be an active participant in her life. He knows in his heart, he probably never deserved you, as well as the angel you produced.
Enjoy your daugther. She’s yours. A gift you’ve given yourself, and she’ll repay, when she is grown, and you are proud of how you raised her.