Fighting the Good Fight

Hey everyone, I have been a very delinquent blogger but you know how it is at times…. you just don’t have the time!

I have been busy with exams, I have finals and I have been at school trying to tie up loose ends, prepare for exams as well as show my face at work and spend time with my daughter.. so my plate has been full.

I must pass these exams, they are essential to my career as well as my ability to provide for my daughter and myself. My next step is a Masters Degree.. but one thing at a time. First I must complete this Bachelors.

Tara is growing beautifully, she is saying new words like :’ish’ for fish, ‘buh’ for bug, ‘ba’ for bike, and she calls trucks .. copter, and helicopters.. copter too. Just amazing, the terrible twos have started and man she can be terrible, she has started hitting, throwing things and screaming loudly and grabbing my clothes and hair when she is upset.

I tell her no, but she seems to continue…. how did you guys deal with this?

I am currently fighting the stigma that people have about single moms… why is it that people assume that single moms are trashy, careless women, who are uneducated and poor? That is not true, while there are some like that a lot of single moms like myself.. are classy, educated and ambitious women who are focused on raising our children to be happy, educated, healthy, well rounded individuals. Again, I encourage all single moms, to keep your head up! Be proud that you have not deserted your responsibility! Be proud that you work so hard for your kids, and be proud that while it hasn’t worked out the way you wanted, you are doing the BEST YOU CAN and God will do the rest.

If you know of a single mom or single moms, don’t treat her or her kid (s) like lesser beings, she is a mother too… …let us support each other, we are all in this thing called life together! Let us all strive to be kind  and uplift each other and our kids… remember that:’ being civil is the only thing that separates us from animals, well some of us’

Love,

Kim

 

The tempest is raging

 I am again going through a spate where i feel so stressed, frightened and overwhelmed.  I am barely clutching to my sanity and to what I know to be true… THAT THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

This weekend, i felt tired, miserable and most of all LONELY. I really long for some ADULT COMPANY. To top it off, I am still verrrrry depressed about her father’s lack of involvement and how do I minimize the impact on her life? I am feel sooo upset!

All i do is go to school, work and mother my sweet daughter. I love her a lot, but believe me…I AM LONELY AND I AM FEELING DEPRESSED.

THIS HYMN WRITTEN BY MARY BAKER, Clearly expresses how I feel: 

Master, the tempest is raging!
The billows are tossing high!
The sky is o’ershadow with blackness,
No shelter or help is nigh;
Carest Thou not that we perish?
How canst Thou lie asleep,
When each moment so madly is threatening
A grave in the angry deep?

Refrain

The winds and the waves shall obey Thy will,
Peace, be still!
Whether the wrath of the storm tossed sea,
Or demons or men, or whatever it be
No waters can swallow the ship where lies
The Master of ocean, and earth, and skies;
They all shall sweetly obey Thy will,
Peace, be still! Peace, be still!
They all shall sweetly obey Thy will,
Peace, peace, be still!

Master, with anguish of spirit
I bow in my grief today;
The depths of my sad heart are troubled
Oh, waken and save, I pray!
Torrents of sin and of anguish
Sweep o’er my sinking soul;
And I perish! I perish! dear Master
Oh, hasten, and take control.

Refrain

Master, the terror is over,
The elements sweetly rest;
Earth’s sun in the calm lake is mirrored,
And heaven’s within my breast;
Linger, O blessèd Redeemer!
Leave me alone no more;
And with joy I shall make the blest harbor,
And rest on the blissful shore

Please see this video on youtube…Amazing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9llcyKcYHPM

 

Enjoying Motherhood

Ok, guys, I have decided to ACTIVELY try to enjoy EVERY ASPECT OF MOTHERHOOD. The last few weeks i have been pretty down about being a single mom and all the stress that comes along with it including having very little time for myself. Well, ok I have made a plan. I go to school on mondays, tuesdays and wednesdays, so after school i will go to the gym. That way i get some ‘me’ time and I will feel better about myself. twice a month, i will let the nanny come in on a sunday for half day and i will use that time to rest! She is coming tomorrow, YAYYYYYY! That means rest for me! Also trying to eat less and more healthy!

Here goes……………..