New Year’s Eve Loneliness

Happy New Year to everyone!!!!! I myself while trying my best to feel optimistic about the upcoming year am feeling LOOOONELY tonight. I have had a great 2007, my family was healthy, we suffered no deaths of close loved ones, we kept our jobs, my daughter hs been healthy and happy and God has just been so good to us. So while i do not want to seem ungrateful, i must admit that tonight december 31, 2007.. i am feeling blue. Blue because one year has passed and I am still no where closer to meeting someone special, one year has passed and my daughter’s dad has been a jerk from conception till now and shows very little interest in her and i am feeling anxious because another year lies ahead and I am fearful of the unknown.

My wishes for 2008:

1. health and happiness for my mom, Tara, my sister , my dad and myself

2. To complete my degree

3. To meet a life partner

4. To eat healthier

5. less crime in jamaica

Love you guys,

K

 

Tara’s Celebrations

Tara turned one on November 30, 2007. We had a party for her on December 1. 2007 and it was great! We had about thirty persons and everyone had a good time!

I am so thankful to God for taking us through her first year and humbly pray that he will take us through many more. She is just a blessing… just a blessing!

 

BABY BIRTHDAY ANXIETIES

Hi guys,

So Tara will be one year old officially on November 30, 2007! Yayyyyyyyyyy!!! It has been a wonderful year filled with many exciting and at times scary moments, but it has been great! Seeing her grow from a helpless newborn to a one year old toddler who is soo full of life! She has her own lil personality and she is truly amazing.

We are going to have a party for her on Saturday, December 1, 2007 and believe me I am lookin forward to decorating and socializing with family and friends… buit it will also be a reminder of a harsh reality that I AM A SINGLE PARENT. I have not heard from her father in two months and it is very unlikely that i will hear from him anytime soon… so that means he will not be present at the party. He doesn’t deserve to be there, because he has not been supportive of her in anyway… he only shows up every now and again. But it bothers me that some people will ask questions even if they don’t ask them aloud… I know some people will be wondering:’ where is the dad?’

Tara needs no pity, she has a wonderful mom and grandma who can provide for her and love her dearly… but I just do not want people thinking that she is ‘worse off’ than kids with two parents. AHHHH… i am frustrated.

Later guys,