I am again going through a spate where i feel so stressed, frightened and overwhelmed. I am barely clutching to my sanity and to what I know to be true… THAT THIS TOO SHALL PASS.
This weekend, i felt tired, miserable and most of all LONELY. I really long for some ADULT COMPANY. To top it off, I am still verrrrry depressed about her father’s lack of involvement and how do I minimize the impact on her life? I am feel sooo upset!
All i do is go to school, work and mother my sweet daughter. I love her a lot, but believe me…I AM LONELY AND I AM FEELING DEPRESSED.
THIS HYMN WRITTEN BY MARY BAKER, Clearly expresses how I feel:
Master, the tempest is raging!
The billows are tossing high!
The sky is o’ershadow with blackness,
No shelter or help is nigh;
Carest Thou not that we perish?
How canst Thou lie asleep,
When each moment so madly is threatening
A grave in the angry deep?
Refrain
The winds and the waves shall obey Thy will,
Peace, be still!
Whether the wrath of the storm tossed sea,
Or demons or men, or whatever it be
No waters can swallow the ship where lies
The Master of ocean, and earth, and skies;
They all shall sweetly obey Thy will,
Peace, be still! Peace, be still!
They all shall sweetly obey Thy will,
Peace, peace, be still!
Master, with anguish of spirit
I bow in my grief today;
The depths of my sad heart are troubled
Oh, waken and save, I pray!
Torrents of sin and of anguish
Sweep o’er my sinking soul;
And I perish! I perish! dear Master
Oh, hasten, and take control.
Refrain
Master, the terror is over,
The elements sweetly rest;
Earth’s sun in the calm lake is mirrored,
And heaven’s within my breast;
Linger, O blessèd Redeemer!
Leave me alone no more;
And with joy I shall make the blest harbor,
And rest on the blissful shore
Please see this video on youtube…Amazing
February 21, 2008 at 2:40 am
I just now read your post, and as someone who can relate to your situation, you have to know it WILL get better. You CAN do it, and your daughter will be just fine. (You don’t have a choice!) You will never change the way her father chooses to handle the situation – you can only make the best of it. It was only once I allowed myself to let go of the idea of a traditional family, that I realized I had an amazing opportunity to create an unique family all our own. Single parenthood isn’t easy, but the bond you’ll share with your daughter will be that much stronger because of it. Hang in there and stay strong – you’re in my thoughts.