Hi guys,
So Tara will be one year old officially on November 30, 2007! Yayyyyyyyyyy!!! It has been a wonderful year filled with many exciting and at times scary moments, but it has been great! Seeing her grow from a helpless newborn to a one year old toddler who is soo full of life! She has her own lil personality and she is truly amazing.
We are going to have a party for her on Saturday, December 1, 2007 and believe me I am lookin forward to decorating and socializing with family and friends… buit it will also be a reminder of a harsh reality that I AM A SINGLE PARENT. I have not heard from her father in two months and it is very unlikely that i will hear from him anytime soon… so that means he will not be present at the party. He doesn’t deserve to be there, because he has not been supportive of her in anyway… he only shows up every now and again. But it bothers me that some people will ask questions even if they don’t ask them aloud… I know some people will be wondering:’ where is the dad?’
Tara needs no pity, she has a wonderful mom and grandma who can provide for her and love her dearly… but I just do not want people thinking that she is ‘worse off’ than kids with two parents. AHHHH… i am frustrated.
Later guys,
Wow! I knew it would not have been easy, but woahhhhh….. Tara is a handful…. she is up at the crack of dawn and the moment her eyes open, she is ready to go!!!! Yesterday she ran up and down the driveway for thirty minutes non stop…. please remember that she will be a year at the end of this month! Then when she came inside she started pulling down everything, she would just walk.. look to the left and see a bag on the chair or the pictures on the picture table and she would rip them down and just continue walking til she saw something else…. she would spy a telephone cord or the cord for the tv and just walk over, grab it and rip it down and put it in her mouth. As a result i am constantly walking behind her and it is EXXXXHAUSTING. I have an accounts exam on thursday and am supposed to be taking the next three days off to study and I am just tired!…. On friday I had to have an abcess incised and drained and it was painful and then I had to drive myself home while being stuck in traffic for two hours. When I got home, I was soo tired but as you know the demands of our kids do not stop when we are not well. When I was eight month pregnant .. i had four abcesses come up on my vagina and in my bottom and had to have them cut and drained.. It was rough and I did not have the support of my daughter’s father. So each time I had to drive myself to the hospital and have them drained and then drive myself home… and then back to have them dressed. It was sooooo rough! Some men are soo awful….. my daughter’s father… he calls once in a while and makes a scene that I do not call him with updates on his daughter! How ridiculous! He is her father if he is interested, he would call.. he only lives ten minutes away. He is just a worthless man! Everything to be done and every penny to be spent, I have to do it! I can manage it just hurt me to know that a man can be so worthless about his child and then have the audacity to call and make RIDICULOUS demands, such as I am to allow him to take her to see his family. She has only seen him three or four times since sha has been born. She does not know him. I cannot send her with a stranger ! Then he says that it is my fault why he is not around. Bull! Bull! Bull!
Christmas is coming and I feel a bit lonely, I wish I had a signifucant other to go shopping with and go out to dinner and a christmas party or two. But no such person…..!!!!!
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